There’s something almost magical that happens to me when I get into the driver’s seat of one of my cars.

I feel calm, cool and collected, no matter what. I feel in control of my destiny. I’m relaxed and confident. Hell, I feel damn sexy sometimes… Especially driving around in my 240SX.
I wish I was that way all the time, but I’m usually not.
Why not?
I’m not sure what it really is about driving one of my cars that does it to me. It’s like being around one of my best friends, who just makes me happy and I’m enjoying the company so much that I just don’t care about anyone else.
Really, I don’t know why I care about people’s overall opinion of me so much…. It’s dumb. It’s like caring how others think of my cars — No, I don’t care about your opinion, they’re my cars and built for me and not for you. Go build your own if you have a problem with something I do. (I often get weird reactions to my Silvia front end conversion plans. But it’s happening, you better believe it.)
So often I feel like the shy little 15 year old that I’m trying to escape. A girl who was too scared to wear skirts or be girly. Somebody who’d freak at the thought of modeling, haha.
And yet, here I am. Telling my story through my own blog, working on trying to build a modeling career even though I’m 5′4″ and have lots of ink and piercings. Nothing in my life seems typical, and that’s what I love so much about it.
Breaking barriers
I’ve made it my personal mission to smash stereotypes and be unusual. Pretty easy for me, really.
Much of the time it doesn’t bother me how people perceive me. I have my weak times, though, when I do. When I wonder why I don’t feel accepted by any group.
I have too many tattoos to be a girly girl. I’m a girl when it comes to cars. I want to become a better racer but I also expect myself to be able to teeter around in five inch heels.
I think I’m a walking conundrum or, at times, a living oxymoron.
The Driver’s Seat
Nothing in my life matters when I get into the driver’s seat. I’m totally focused on what I’m doing, on being a good driving partner to my car.
There are no distractions, only the task at hand. Complete focus. Complete control. Complete calmness.
I am at my best when I am in the driver’s seat.
I just want to take that best and bring it to everything I do… My best lessons in life have been learned in my cars, in the driver’s seat.
















